The Joy of a Clear Conscience
If you do well, will not your countenance be
lifted up?
– Genesis 4:7 –
These
words, spoken by God to Cain, deal with what may well be the single most
profound aspect of human experience – the work of conscience.
Cain
and his brother each brought an offering to God, related to his life’s
work. Cain was “a tiller of the ground,”
and Abel, “a keeper of flocks.” The Lord
was pleased with Abel’s offering, but had “no regard” for Cain’s. Why? Because
Abel brought his offering in faith and Cain did not (Heb. 11:4).
This
difference is intimated in how their respective offerings are described. It is said of Cain, simply, that he “brought
an offering to the Lord of the
fruit of the ground.” But concerning
Abel, it says he brought the “firstlings of his flock and of their fat
portions.” This means, as Cassuto explains,
that “whilst Abel was concerned to choose the finest thing in his possession,
Cain was indifferent.”[1]
Cain
held back the best portions for himself and gave the leftovers to God.[2] In so doing, he betrayed a lack of faith. As a result, his offering was rejected, and seeing
this, “his countenance fell.” That is, his mood
expressed itself physically. His body
language (slumping shoulders, hanging head, and troubled look) betrayed his
inner state. He was sullen and depressed, both inevitable consequences of wrongdoing.[3] Inevitable, because God has given us the
ability to pass judgment on ourselves, either approving or disapproving our
behavior (Rom. 2:15). We do this necessarily. It’s something we cannot not do. We can no more escape it than we can escape
being human.
When
we do what is right, we experience an inner moral harmony. All is right between God and my soul. But when we do wrong, we suffer internal dissonance,
a contradiction between what we know to be right and a consciousness of guilt. The result is shame, guilt, anxiety, depression,
and often – as in Cain’s case – anger toward God (for not accepting our
behavior) and toward the righteous (because their good behavior stands as a rebuke
of our sin).
In 1973, Dr. Karl Menninger, one of America’s foremost psychiatric experts wrote an insightful book entitled, Whatever
Became of Sin? In it, he lamented
the fact that the word “sin” had virtually disappeared from our
vocabulary. As a psychiatrist, mind you (not fundamentalist preacher!), he saw a
deep connection between mental health and moral health.
“Has the reader dismissed the whole
sin-and-guilt business from his mind?
Can he? And the anxiety and
depression, also? Just call it
existential, do you, and plod onward? If
so, congratulations. Some of us can’t do
that. It is a burning sore, a deep
grief, a heartache for many of us.”[4]
For all his insights, Menninger
was a secular man and therefore didn’t understand just how deeply embedded and
how pervasive a thing sin really is in human nature and experience, nor did he fully
understand the objective character and divine origin of the moral code; but he
was an astute enough observer of his patients to recognize that so much of the “depression,
gloom, discouragement, and apprehensiveness” people suffer is the result of
a guilty conscience.
The
work of conscience lies at the heart of our self-esteem. When we do what is right, we can think well
of ourselves and experience true joy; but when we do wrong, we can’t help but
to condemn ourselves and suffer a kind of self-loathing. No one can feel good about himself while his
own conscience condemns him. Hence the
futility of basing one’s self-esteem on anything other than a clear conscience (e.g., wealth, beauty, educational or professional accomplishments, social standing, etc.).
Paul
spoke often of importance of maintaining a clear conscience. When tried before the Roman governor,
he said, “I always take pains to have a clear conscience toward both God and
man” (Acts 24:16). In writing to the
church at Corinth he said,
For our boast is this: the testimony of our
conscience that we behaved in the world with simplicity and godly sincerity,
not by earthly wisdom but by the grace of God, and supremely so toward you. (2
Cor. 1:12 )
There
were those who had accused him of wrongdoing, of being a false apostle, of
having false motives in preaching, of claiming too much authority for himself. But he knew otherwise. His conscience was clear.
He
wrote to Timothy, “The aim of our charge is love that issues from a pure heart
and a good conscience and a sincere faith” (1 Tim. 1:5). Elsewhere, he said,
This charge I entrust to you, Timothy, my
child, in accordance with the prophecies previously made about you, that by
them you may wage the good warfare, holding faith and a good conscience. By rejecting this, some have made shipwreck of
their faith. (1 Tim. 1:18 -19)
Cain’s
countenance fell when he sinned; he was grieved and crushed.[5] But the Lord said, “Why are you angry, and why
is your face fallen? If you do well,
will not your countenance be lifted up?” (Gen. 4:6-7a). These are not words of rebuke, but an
expression of comfort and fatherly counsel.[6] The Lord was encouraging him to return to the
path of obedience as the only remedy to relieve his guilty conscience. This is our only remedy, too.
All
too often, however, we seek alternative cures.
Sometimes this takes the form of euphemizing our sins. They are no longer sins – offenses against
God – but mistakes, errors, lapses in judgments. Sometimes we justify ourselves. “What I did may have been wrong, but…” Perhaps we even deny we did the deed in
question; or worse, deny the sinful deed was sinful; or worse still, dare to
claim the deed was in fact good. All of
this proves the truth of Jeremiah 17:9,
The
heart is deceitful above all things,
and desperately sick;
who
can understand it?
With
every justification, denial, and evasion, conscience registers its
dissent and our inner turmoil grows. We can no more escape this than
we can escape our humanity.
I
know my transgressions,
and my sin is ever before me
— Psalm 51:3
The
burden of a troubled conscience, especially when strengthened by the convicting
power of the Holy Spirit, can be unbearable.
The more we try to convince ourselves that we have done nothing to be
ashamed of, the further we alienate ourselves, not only from God but also from
ourselves.
When
I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
For
day and night
your hand was heavy upon me;
my
strength was dried up
as by the heat of summer.
— Psalm 32:3-4
The
only relief from this – the only path back to an inner moral harmony – is the
path of repentance, which is to say, a return to a life of obedience. “If you do well [note the conditional
clause!] will not your countenance be lifted up?” The body language once again reflecting the
inner mood, which is itself the product of an approving conscience.
To
borrow the language of the Westminster Shorter Catechism, a return to obedience
– combined with a direct and earnest appeal to God for mercy through Jesus
Christ (cf. Heb. 9:14) – will result in “peace of conscience and joy in the
Holy Spirit.”[7] There is no better or more joyful way to
live.
[1] Umberto
Cassuto, A Commentary on the Book of
Genesis: From Adam to Noah (Jerusalem: The Magnes Press, 1998), p.
205.
[2] At a
later period, the Lord would deliver a scathing rebuke to the priests for
despising his name by bringing him unworthy offerings. “Is that not evil?” he said. “Present that to your governor; will he accept
you or show you favor?” (Mal. 1:6-14).
[3] The
experience of Adam and Eve show that shame and fear of retribution are also
among the effects of a guilty conscience (see Gen. 2:25; 3:8-10).
[4] Karl
Menninger, M.D., Whatever Became of Sin? (New York, NY: Hawthorn Books, Inc., 1973), p. 17.
[5] Cassuto,
p. 207
[6] Cassuto,
p. 208
[7]
Westminster Shorter Catechism Q&A #36.
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